I’m a little scared at the moment.
The cost of living is increasing, and seems like most
everyone I know is having trouble managing their levels of debt. I’m debating
with myself whether my own mother is deserving of a bailout from her family for
making some really bad investment choices. From what I can tell, a vast
majority of people and organizations have unmanageable debt, and nobody seems
to be worried about it.
My time has become scarce as of late. Employment, working on
my house, dating, social obligations, and predesignated scheduled leisure (aka
raiding), and working out have left me a little light in the time department. I
have friends I want to catch up with, books I want to read, and couches that
need sitting on.
Work is becoming more demanding. It’s always, do more with
less. I like my job a lot, but I don’t want to be a workaholic like some of my
co-workers. What happened to liking your job and not letting it get the best of
you; was that false? We hire more people, but the workload never seems to get
lighter.
The NSA has been collecting cell phone records, and is
probably spying on my activities. No big surprise, but concerning nonetheless.
I don’t trust the government, congress or any type organization, and I’m not
alone.
My friends are all disappearing one by one. They are getting
married, having children, and moving away. Sometimes they are just going rogue
all by themselves and I don’t ever hear from them again.
I’m worried that my house is going to take me down and cost
me tons of money. I’m working on it, fixing it, making it better, so that I can
own something of value. While it’s nice to have a project to work on, I’m not a
career landlord, and its responsibility that I don’t like owning.
I’m not getting any younger. I’m dating someone at the
moment and she is really awesome and cool, but I think if I want to have a
relationship with her, a long courtship is not going to happen. I've had two
very long relationships, and that seems like just a luxury now. If I want to
have a family, I feel rushed.
Our generation is one of distraction. We aren't great
explorers, fighting wars, baby booming, or fighting for civil rights. We are tweeting,
pinning, posting, and instagraming ourselves and existing in worlds that we are
building for a population of one.
Am I just living in a world of accelerating acceleration?
All of these paradigms are shifting right now and it is kind
of freaking me out. The thing that really worries me is that the list of things
to worry about is not going to shrink over time. How do I get out of the infinite worry loop? Just stop caring about all things?
